PINKERTON = i am a mess

Hello my name is Mitch and i am a mess. I am a mess that inadvertently has been living his summer life up to this point in a fashion akin to PINKERTON. Yep that WEEZER album that no one really liked but the losers and now its recognized as one of their best ever. But let me explain track by track the realization i came today while rocking the entire album out.

1. Tired of Sex: i don't have sex, i am a good Mormon boy. With that said due to several failed and still smoldering attempts at making serious relationships work; i decided to take a break from seriousness and MAC my way through May, June, July and August. Its been fun but I catch myself often wishing that i could perceive some substance in any of these girls. When Rivers says "i know i am a sinner, but i can't say no", i know i once shunned the shallow types for exactly what i am doing now, but i can't say no. Because there is no better option at the moment.

2. Why Bother?: "Its just sexual attraction, nothing real so i better keep whacking." This one is a great testament to my attempts to totally mangle and maim my social life and previous social standards. I am only physically attracted to these girls, i know its not real, i've felt real and this isn't it. But then he screams, "i've known alot of girls, whats the harm in knowing one more." Because even if its not real, whats the harm, why bother? Its called a fling for a reason.

3. Across the Sea: Despite my attempts to be reckless, i do have some really cool and legit crushes on some cool and legit girls. Ones i would consider real. I consider them as such because we pen pal and i enjoy our conversations. That is real enough for me.

4. El Scorcho: This one is a hope more than a reality, its about meeting a girl that you click with on multiple levels as suggested by the verses about 1/2 japanese girls, and her not knowing about Green day (back in '96 it was quite a feat). Then his declaration of love, "i think i'd be good for you and you'd be good for me." Its simple and honest which i usually try to be when i am not trying to be reckless.

5. The good life: My life is not a terrible, I have jobs that pay me money and take up my ample time. I have an awesome pad and a car that works and plays PINKERTON really loud. I am cocky/arrogant/egotistical/good-looking/self-aware and for some reason girls of all kinds like this. So to be able to decide hey i am going to make a mess with all this and enjoy it, (and not get struck down by God), means that i cant be having it too hard. If anything i make harder than it needs to be by choice. "But who do i have to blame? nobody but me".

I am Mitch and i am making a mess while its hot and sticky, contact me if you feel so inclined to participate in any way.